Anger and A Different Form of Fire
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We are living in epic times. There are massive changes abound.
I was realizing the other day how amorphic I’ve been feeling recently with energy being more ramped up and more instances of feeling the waves of collective anger, frustration and rage energy happening around me and confronting my own challenges on different levels. For all those curious, the word amorphic means “having no defined shape, lacking form; amorphous.” I have sort of felt knocked around like a ball in a pinball machine and shape shifting my energy to deal with the varying currents of energy pushing and pulling me in different directions. I think part of why I have been feeling this way is that as a sensitive person I have been sensing the power dynamic on the planet change; we are shifting to a different foundation with greater feminine energy becoming more dominant over masculine energy. At some point these energies will balance each other out and we will enter into a different spiritual time.
What do I mean by feminine energy? First off, it’s not just women who carry this force – men also exhibit dominant feminine energy and women can have greater masculine constitutions. Feminine energy is about deep caring, compassion, nurturance, receiving, connecting and acceptance. Masculine energy on the other hand has more to do with action, drive, assertiveness, confidence and decisiveness. Granted, there are so many other words that can be used here and these are oversimplified categorizations. For the most part, feminine and masculine energies are two opposites – much like yin and yang – and on the planet we are switching on a lot of different levels from one extreme to the other before balancing out. Ultimately, we need both of these energies – one is not better than the other. Really a balance of both these forces or a third entity that’s a combination or reconciling force between these two energies is ideal.
For now, we are in the liminal space and have been for some time. We are in the process of this massive planetary shift happening and what is taking place individually, collectively and as a planet – is that things are being shaken up.
People are calling out shit that is shit, people are finding their voice, and disenfranchised groups who have every right are standing up and others who have a strong pulse on what they see as the way forward are putting their opinions out there – all of this essentially moving us towards greater feminine energy.
That said, we are not to the other side of feminine energy being the dominant energetic force on the planet. It’s hard to be in the in between space where things are and have been shifting, but they haven’t completely shifted and not for everyone. So we can personally feel or experience the shifts, but recognize that they are either not completely shifted or we can feel not entirely able to live out those shifts because the systems we experience on a day-to-day basis have not embraced feminine energy as the new way and therefore our shifted energetic fields cannot fully be lived.
What this all amounts to is that these times are not comfortable and we are impacted differently and in a variety of ways. I notice that often the way I get hit by these more intense energies is that I float energetically or go amorphic. The forces become so powerful that as a sensitive person I get overwhelmed and float out of my body and therefore encounter these feelings of amorphicness. Other people enter into fight, flight or freeze mode – so it’s different depending on your nervous system health, the intensity of the energy or based on your go-to nervous system reaction.
I have a sense that part of this shakeup and a way through this liminal space is that we are being called to awaken our hearts up further to love each other, the planet, and ourselves more. This is calling for a different form of anger or fire in confronting or managing the shifts –
not a blazing, out of control, blow up everything in its path sort of intense fire…
but a calm, persistent, cozy, nurturing and contained kind of fire.
Essentially this anger represents our deeper spirits asking for this softer and gentler side of ourselves to be released into the world…the feminine parts of ourselves asking for more nurturance and more airplay in our lives. But we have been hurt, are scared about opening our hearts, worried about getting hurt more, not confidant we are up to the task, or accustomed to fighting, fleeing, staying small or shutting up.
However the time to rise is now. The greater spirits will continue to hold us in their hands as they wait for us to wake up to living our truths. But there exists a greater energetic blue print invitation calling for us to harness our truth and we will continue to make our paths more difficult the longer we drag our feet and the more masculine energy we unleash into the world.
We must be careful to tune into ourselves throughout our personal and professional lives to recognize what kind of fire we are drawing from within. Is it the blazing, out of control, blow up everything in its path sort of intense fire or the calm, persistent, cozy, nurturing and contained kind of fire? One of these fires brings forward more masculine energy and the other greater feminine energy. Both kinds of fire are essential at different times and in different places. I must add that masculine fire when well managed and not wild can burn strong, direct and forceful, which very much is necessary and healthy when applied at the right times and in the right ways. Feminine fire too can get out of control when the fire is too receptive, sacrificing and over-nurturing. Therefore, one must be mindful in igniting the right kind of flames.
However, at this time with our systems shifting and male power beginning (and in the process of being) usurped and threatened, the majority of the fire energy heating this planet is the out of control male fire. What is needed at this time for everyone is the slower burning feminine fire that will get us in greater touch with our spirits deep within and allow us to transcend to this dominant feminine planetary energy world. It is this feminine fire that contains a constructive fire, that seeks to benefit not just one’s ego, but fights for everyone and for the good of all.
So I ask – and I have as much to gain from in heeding to my advice:
What parts of your life do you feel silenced or not fully speaking your truth?
How is it that you are able to tap into that deeper, gentler, more radiant, calm and nurturing anger you hold within?
Do you find yourself shying away from speaking your truth because you don’t think the other person (persons or place) is ready or able to hear and feel the feminine part of yourself or this softer, more pure and challenging form of anger?
We are all students of life and we have decided to live on this planet at charged and changing times. Our higher order work to carry out in the world is not easy and there are times where we are over fueled and let our anger get the best of us.
That said, we can always find our center of gravity again and harness this different form of fire which benefits us in the following ways:
Speaking your truth from a soft fire place will heat you up inside and allow your convictions to come out the more you foster your feminine energy.
It will re-kindle and warm those around you.
Your natural self will come forward more with allowing this nurturing, calm, fire-place kind of anger to unfreeze your heart, warm your spirit, and calm your nervous system.
Our planet will gain from us humans as animals living with our hearts and honoring the other animals and plants in our ecosystems to cultivate greater balance.
We certainly are being bombarded by changes happening all around us on many different levels. We all can be victims of our nervous system states in dealing with what’s coming at us or we can dig deeper into ourselves and harness the kind of fire that propels ourselves and those around us to higher versions of ourselves.
As we enter this darker time of year with a whole lot of rampant wildfires out there, I really encourage you all to find that graceful fire from within and allow that force to warm your heart; allowing your feminine energy to step forward and thereby igniting your true self to be unleashed out into the world.